For, at least, some members of 3F, today’s highlight (rather, event of the day) would likely be Doreen Ang and a chance to bitch about her. So she may be unreasonable, or unkind, but I’m hoping I won’t hold anything against her for trying to do her job, so I’m not bitching.

1) a mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity
2) sad feelings of gloom and inadequacy

Well, then I guess I’m half depressed. I’ve been feeling inadequate already for a few days, and I’m guessing watching the Lit people put up their parodies today wasn’t a good idea. I’m afraid I’ll never achieve anything that’s beyond insignificant, in any field whatsoever. I’m afraid I’m inadequate socially and aptitudally. Anyhow, still all the best to whoever is putting up performances tomorrow for EL week stuff.

Matthew 6: 25-34 says
“do not worry about your life…seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
6:19-24 says also that we should store up treasures in heaven

Yes, the Bible says do not worry, God will provide. It says that treasures on earth do not matter. Yet I still envy and covet, I desire prizes and accomplishments. I’m afraid I’ll never account for anything, and I really really want to. So I struggle with inadequacy and I struggle with becoming fully dependent on God’s Word and providence. Smileys were meant to be used to express emotion when the internet was first created; I hope this one dosen’t succumb to to modern trend of overusage and meaninglessness. =(


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